Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Julie's LiveJournal:

[ << Previous 20 ]

Thursday, July 14th, 2005
10:59 pm	Heck yeah!!! :) Your Summer Anthem is Switch by Will Smith Back at it, this cat is the wit and the charm Taking you higher, like a syringe hittin' ya arm Bringin' the fire, making your Benz ring the alarm This summer, you bring the party (and attitude) with you wherever you go. What's Your 2005 Summer Anthem? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 20th, 2005
6:38 pm	it's summer...! so, here's my first summer update... yay! first of all, I got my grades, and I actually passed all of my classes, so YAY because that means I actually DID graduate!! (sorry to disappoint those that had bets going that I would be back next year...!) I'm leaving for Florida soon... for a week... it should be fun, just as long as I don't get driven crazy by my insane family!! yeah, and a week with a child that is not quite two-years-old... now, I love my neice, but that may ALSO drive me nuts... ah well I went to see the new Star Wars today with Matt and Emily J. It was really good!! There were some kick ass fight scenes... which is my favorite part of any movie!! So, I was much happier with this movie than the second one, that's for sure. I recommend it to anyone! The only problem now is that I need to watch 4-6 again... :) I quit my job (finally!! all those who have been telling me to get out of Bob Evans for the past 6 years, it has now finally happened!!) The only thing is, now I really need to find a new job... hmmm.... Ok, so pretty much I have done nothing since being out of school... but, there are definitely going to be several pool parties here this summer! :) oh yeah, snow cones and giant animal floats and sprinklers, we're going all out! Well, that's sufficient updating for now... later! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Collide (without anyone singing along to the wrong words!) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
11:34 pm	whoa envy and lust!!! haha... that's so me (actually, I guess it kinda is... sad...) but, less than 50% chance of going to hell! haha... i'm so amused with these things sometimes... Your Deadly Sins Envy: 100% Lust: 60% Sloth: 60% Greed: 40% Gluttony: 20% Pride: 20% Wrath: 20% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 46% You will die in a duel. How Sinful Are You? Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 5th, 2005
1:41 am	and I'm sad... and it's for so many countless reasons. It's just started hitting me how much I am going to miss some of these people that I have grown so close to... it is an absolutely horrible feeling to think that I may never see some of them again. it is also one of the most horrible feelings in the world to know that there are people that have no idea just how much I really do care about them, and that I am so stupid that they may never know. some of it's that I'm scared to say it, some of is that I definitely do not show it enough in the way I act. and part of it is that if I don't show or give real emotion, then they can't hurt me in return. sad. well, now that I'm completely depressed, I might as well say how much I really am going to miss everyone. my Music Therapy girls are the best- we have seriously been through soo much together, I don't even have the words... as are all of my music major people in general. I definitely would not have gotten through 4 years in this insane department and all of these classes without all of my friends there. I really would have switched majors (although that still seems like it could have been a good idea...). I absolutely love and adore my housemates- which honestly, I didn't think I would be able to be so happy living here, knowing how much I love and miss my old housemates from the past few years, but you girls have been absolutely wonderful. and I really cannot believe just how much I'm going to miss all of my sisters- they are such amazing people! and it seems that I just now feel that I have developed so many good relationships within our sisterhood, and now it's over for me... and along that note, I really am going to miss a lot of the brothers! they are really great guys (for the most part... haha). Ok, it's now official, that this is now the sappiest thing that I have EVER WRITTEN! Bleh... really gross, and I said that I wouldn't do this... but I am. So... if you've gotten to this point, thanks for reading all of that sap/crap :) and now that I'm crying and not going to sleep all night, it really is time to finish up this journal and start on some real work... goodnight. Current Mood: sad Current Music: ..... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
2:35 am	I love my friends :) I have some of the most amazing friends ever... :) I honestly don't know what I would do without them... and I am getting incredibly sappy now that it's the end of the school year, and people are going to be leaving all throughout the week, and I can't handle it! I don't want anyone to leave-- ever!! And I have been totally crazy over the past few days, and my emotions are so mixed about so many different things, and different people, and I'm driving myself crazy! I just wish everything would be easier to figure out, and that clear paths were laid out for me so I knew exactly what to do! I also kind of wish that people were just my friends, and that we wouldn't have to go through so much drama all the time... why is that necessary? My summer could really suck. People, I will not be that far from Dayton, or Cinci (in fact, I live in between the two...) so if you are around either area, there is no excuse for you not to hang out with me over this summer!!!! In the fall, I will be back in Dayton though (yeah internship!) and that makes me incredibly happy... plus Rachel will be back then too!! (and actually, Erin had better be coming back by then too!! haha) And I am excited, even though it will be completely different... and I should be excited about starting something new... but I'm really not! I like comfort and predictability! Damn! :) OK, that's about it for this wonderfully lame journal entry... :) Current Mood: weird Current Music: my BSB dvd playing in the background (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
3:04 am	FH is so fun... gosh, after four nights of fun drinking, I'm gonna finally have to sober up for exams week!!! (yes you all, I am kidding... I'm not an alcoholic... really!!!) today was overall pretty good. it's strange to feel so many emotions at once... some people know how to say and do everything right, and make me feel so content and happy... and some people just seem to upset me so much!! unfortunately, I think too many times I let the upsetting people take me over, and I don't enjoy the people that are there for me enough. Now that's called I have to get my priorities straight!!! how is it that I manage to scare away every guy that gets near me?! it really seems like that happens to me more often than it should... which is just sad :( although, i guess that's not completely true, because Candi and Stace both thought the one guy working at Hustler today was hitting on me :) he was cute... i could have gotten his digits... haha! could you see me dating a guy that kept trying to help me pick out a vibrator?!?! :) here's why we should hang in my room w/ shots more often. funniest line all night: Jess saying "Julie, you've liked him long enough that you should skip the talking and just stick your tongue down his throat!" :) that's awesome, unfortunately, i think that boy would be scarred for life from that experience... hahaha but funny I'm sitting here thinking about what something fun I can do tomorrow night would be... and I realize, it won't be anything remotely fun at all, because I have an Anatomy exam on Monday... hmm... oh yeah!! and lots of papers due for Susan on Wed and Thurs... ohhhhh I forgot all about those.... wow this sucks! haha, I should go to sleep... ...and I am! goodnight all! Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Nsync (old school! 1st cd!!) (Comment on this)
Friday, April 29th, 2005
2:00 am	I give up. I'm done. it's really not worth it for me to do this to myself all the time... And everytime I say something differently, please remind me to think this way! And that's really all I have to say right now. Night all (but by the way, Senior Salute was a GOOD time!! :) as was going to Jimmy Johns at 1 a.m. w/ Katie!! :) ) Current Mood: irritated Current Music: "Since You've Been Gone" (in my head from the bars...) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
12:34 am	I am insane sometimes :) (if you are reading this, you probably already know this information, but I thought it would be really cool to write it down... hahaha) (also, notice that the little purple star guy has a Santa hat on to symbolize "crazy." how weird is that?!?!) (he's also doing something weird with his mouth... hmmm) Current Mood: crazy Current Music: "Girlfriend" NSync and Nelly :) (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 25th, 2005
3:47 am	yay for insomnia yes, after last night, I'm back to staying awake all night... it's ok, 3 hours per night is sufficient!! ha... and sadly, i only get a decent amount of sleep after drinking (see, that's why I advocate it so much!) This weekend was wonderful. On Friday I went to see SS&S production... what was it? well, I don't really know, nor did I totally get the point of the story, but that's ok, it was funny nevertheless! and I got to see Brandon in drag (and yes, i was jealous of his figure!) then I got to hang with David and Matt, oh yeah until I got taken off to Pimps & Hoes... hmm, that was interesting. Of course, I found something to take completely wrong and overreact to, and my solution was to throw back some beers (thanks Candi for cutting me off!) Saturday morning we had initiation... and it was my last one! :( Which did make me sad, but I was so happy to get our seven new sisters! They are all wonderful! and I just love anytime I get to have quality sister time, except for realizing just how much I'm going to miss everyone after graduation!!! Saturday evening was Formal, which was wonderful! Seriously, I was getting so freaked out, and I have no idea why, but it was great! My roommates, and all my sisters there, were gorgeous! And Matt was seriously the best date I could have asked for! He is such a gentleman, and I am such a sucker for that... :) And of course, we looked really hot together!! (yeah for matching! i mean, i'm a little obsessive, but it looked really good...!) And yay for the fact that he is not afraid to dance, as so many guys are, and dancing was the best part of the night obviously-- even though on our first slow dance song, Matt decides to tell me, as we're dancing, that his zipper is open and stuck that way... yeah, that's cool! (it's ok, it was fixed, but a good story anyways!) So pretty much, I'm just so happy that we had a good time and it was so comfortable and tension-free. (yeah, and if he reads all of this, I know his ego is going to inflate... but it's ok, he might deserve it for being so good to me! :) ) So after formal was of course, the after-party! Yeah, I might have had a little too much Jose Cuervo in too short of a time... :) but it's all good. I am now trying to recall things that happened, and some of it is a little blurry, but the highlights... I definitely wish my BSB dvd would have played better, because I really wanted to see Mike Blocksidge sing and dance along (which he did anyways)! umm... damn, what else happened?! Oh yeah, I found that some feelings I didn't know I had were there... hmm, bout that one... I'm just going to try and forget what I was actually thinking that night... even though I'm sure the people that heard me talking about it won't actually let me forget! I also decided, once again, that it'd be cool to drunk IM people, and realize after it was too late what I did. (and once again, thanks to Candi for both cutting me off, and making me get off my damn computer!! what would I do without her?!) all in all, a good party, though I didn't get what I wanted... but then again, I'm also not really sure what I DO want, so it's good that I didn't get what I think I wanted... (that made absolutely no sense, and I'm sober... I think my drunk LJ entries are better than this too!! haha) Well, Sunday was fairly uneventful... as I literally did nothing... :) and now it may finally be time for me to get to bed, so that I can acheive my 3 hours of sleep before Anatomy rolls around at 9a.m.! Goodnight all! Current Mood: pretty happy/somewhat confused Current Music: "Lose my Breath" Destiny's Child (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
1:17 am	not sure about the accuracy... Your Aura is Yellow Your Personality: Life's too short not to have fun. Your bright energy brings joy and laughter to those around you. You in Love: A total flirt, you need a lot of freedom to play. But you'll be loyal to that one man who makes you feel safe. Your Career: You love variety in a job, and you probably won't stick with one career. You would make a great professor, writer, or actress. What Color Is Your Aura? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 18th, 2005
1:19 am	I really don't know what's wrong with me sometimes... here's my thought of the night: am I an emotional masochist? you decide. I am starting to believe that I am. it's funny how I always think/say/do stupid things, try to think that it's someone else that's causing the problems, but in reality, it's me. I do it to myself. why you ask? I don't know... that's what I am really trying to figure out. I am aware at how stupid it is though, so bear with me, and maybe I'll be able to stop eventually... On a happier note, this weekend was wonderful, other than I got absolutely nothing done! Stacy's recital on Friday was awesome... drinking at the FH later was awesome... haha! these people I hang out with are crazy! I love it! seriously, the strangest things come up in conversation-- and it's really too bad that no one ever seems to forget what was said! haha! Saturday was also good-- Jess's recital was great-- I really miss my music therapy girls! and my roommates told me I looked hot (which was completely the point- not to play well, but to look good :) I love them! :) And I was so happy that there were so many supportive people at the recital! I know it meant a lot to Jess (she was worried) and even though I had a small part, it meant so much to me too! And then Saturday night I also got to see Laura, which has not happened in a LONG time! I miss my Big! but it was good to get to see her (and watch her drink, and hear stories of her drinking!) Sunday- also good! Our MITs are so cute :), and our 2 hour percussion practice was actually pretty amusing. Candi and all the soph MUT girls kicked ass at the guitar coffeehouse, and then I got to "pick out" clothes for Matt (which involved not actually picking anything so it was pointless) and then I helped break a door :) Good stuff-- and then at midnight when I got home not only do I have a damn paper to write, but I was reminded that I have a presentation to give tomorrow!! yeah... i'm dumb :) so, now that I just wasted more of my time not getting anything accomplished (other than writing down all the stupid stuff i just wrote here), I should get to work! Bring on the shitty week!! (I'm prepared only because another good weekend is lined up!) :) Current Mood: confused Current Music: "This Way" -- Jewel (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 7th, 2005
1:08 am	So... this has been one long week so far!! and it's not over!! at least this stupid Symposium IS over, so I have one less thing to care about! There is, once again, a very good chance that I may fail yet another class, because Susan is definitely having problems, and taking it out on me! (and also Laura, for that matter, so at least it's not just me) If I make it through the end of this semester with a MUT degree, it will truly be a miracle... On to happier news-- I definitely found a wonderful Formal dress, which is really exciting, especially since I wasn't sure if I was even going to go for the longest time! I don't even care about the fact that I spent way too much money on it (and the bridesmaid dress I had to get, and the ridiculously expensive bra, and the $75 for tanning!) I'm sure it will be worth it! :) And I'm really excited that I have a really great date this year! :) Actually, it's just strange... I'm not usually this into formal stuff at all... I think it's somehow funny that I still don't care about any of my classes, and would rather hang out and drink and have a good time than worry about classes :) Yes, second Wednesday night in a row at the Fieldhouse... it may become a regular thing through the end of the semester! :) But really, I do pretty much anything to avoid class/homework (tanning, watching Felicity, shopping, lunch dates, etc.)... but it's all good :) What's also good: Jessica passed her Recital Boards!! Which means that I also passed, and we get to do our duet together!! :) (which also means that I get to go find a new dress/outfit for her recital-- yeah!!) Ok, I think I'm done being crazy for the night... more updating later as I feel inclined to do so! Current Mood: horny Current Music: "Collide" - Howie Day (damn song is still stuck in my head!) (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
12:56 am	So much knowledge from Felicity :) Here's what I have learned from watching Felicity with my roommates: - always having a lollipop in your mouth will attract men - apparently not a single bar in NYC cards for minors - people should stick together in groups of 6-8 people, make no other friends, and date amongst themselves, so everyone in the group gets a fair shot with each other - according to my roommates, I have strange taste in men, because the "hot" ones we see on the show I am not attacted to (but I just have a different definition of "hot"! I mean come on...!) and the best one: - more than likely, all crucial problems can be solved in less than an hour, so that everyone can end up happy and content at the end (though not always the case, because there have to be cliffhangers sometimes...) I have learned so much from my house's mutual obsession :) And I am so grateful that I have sisters who can make me completely forget about all the crappy things on my mind!! :) Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Love Song for No One" - John Mayer (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
2:29 am	hmmm things are so weird... seriously, tonight was strange... maybe I really should stop going out drinking. no good ever comes of it! (shocking, I know) though I will say that there were some pretty interesting comments and conversations tonight... way more discussion of body parts than I needed... :) Can two people be just friends when the one person cares more about the other, and the feelings are not reciprocated back? (by the way, this is just a question, I wanna know what others think, and for those of you that think you know who I am referring to, you are wrong...) I am still a coward I might just fail this exam tomorrow, so at 2:30 a.m. and slightly intoxicated, I am going to begin my studying. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: "Alone" -- Heart (yeah 80's rock) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
1:11 am	Some people are so fucking stupid!!! OK, I like how I talk to people, and I can be fine while talking to them, but then I reflect on what was said and it pisses me off! I should learn to focus on this while talking to people, and then stand up and bitch them out when they are being stupid! One would think that if you're "friends" with someone, that this bullshit wouldn't be so difficult... Confront them Julie!! But then I would have to be brave, and confront people, and not be so freaking scared of asking or doing things... which I am. I am such a coward. I have no idea why. Actually I do, it's obviously a fear of rejection, and sometimes that fear is just stupid for me to feel, but sometimes I have very good reason for having it. When I get optimistic and brave about things, usually it doesn't work out the way I want. I don't know anymore... I'm just frustrated with myself... and of course with other people. So for some news: I'll be staying in Dayton for at least another year! I've taken the internship at Bethany Lutheran Village here, so I'm not moving very far! It's also looking like Rachel is going to take her job offer here in Dayton, so with any luck, I will have a roommate!! She is already looking into apartments, which is fun :) And if Erin moves back here once her internship is done in June, that would be the best thing ever. Some of the old 115 Woodland clan could reunite!!! :) So, tonight I'm pretty much bitchy and happy at the same time... weird how I'm like that a lot. I have a ton of work to do, but I am slacking off, and currently watching LOTR... although I'm finishing my Psychoanalysis Unconscious Song Log, which is crap. We have to interpret what the songs that pop into my head mean? My head is too much of a mess.... There are fucking people screaming and honking their horns outside... it's more obnoxious than usual. On that note, I'm off of here... night. Current Mood: irritated Current Music: LOTR - Two Towers music (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
1:41 am	I've never been so happy for a spring break!! I haven't even done anything that exciting, I just needed a break from class, and a break from psycho professors, and a break from some of those other people that drive me insane...! So it's good. I went to Cleveland for a few days-- and I got to see Erin, which always makes me feel better about things. She is usually a good voice of reason for me. Sometimes too reasonable... that's why having Rachel around is good, because she's the opposite! So my long weekend is Cleveland consisted mainly of watching movies (the Ring, and Ring 2, and episodes from OC Season 1) and eating good food (yeah Cheesecake Factory, among others), and also getting to hang out w/ Ann Marie in the non-UD setting, which was great! but now I'm back home in Monroe... and I miss people again already! I definitely miss Rach too... it would be fabulous if she takes a job and moves back to Dayton! Although if that happens, we are definitely not drinking so much together anymore... though last weekend was a good time too! but both of us drinking two nights in a row wasn't good, it was funny that she got drunk and acted like a crazy freak on Saturday night, and then I in turn got drunk and acted like a crazy freak on Sunday night. And even with how I acted, and how people that saw made fun of me, Rachel still acted worse :) That makes me feel better! So I also went shopping again, and I tried on the Formal dress I really want again... but I just haven't been able to justify buying a stupid expensive dress if I may not go... So, the first decision I need to make is to go or not!! If anyone has a hot guy for me, let me know ;) (because I found another hot guy at work... and he's married too!) Ok, that's enough updating... goodnight all! :) Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: "Cold" -- Crossfade (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
5:22 pm	I am such a big freak sometimes... Current Mood: predatory Current Music: Baby You should let me love you.... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
2:02 am	another update... you know, I've been very good at updating my journal!! :) even though I usually have nothing important to say at all. Still, I find the time to write down that "nothing" so you folks have something to read!! Wisconsin this weekend was fun! I did not buy a cheese hat, nor did I milk a cow... nor did Erin and I really do anything!! We were outside of the actual city of Milwaukee, by the airport, so not much to do at night... so we watched LOTS of tv and movies-- classic Erin and Julie style :) We also both actually got sleep in the hotel... oh, after sleeping in a UD bed for a long time, having a nice fluffy double all to myself was a good thing! the sad thing was that Erin and I both slept through our morning sessions on both Friday and Saturday... yeah, we're going to be great music therapists!! :) but overall fun, good times, and I was certainly not ready for Monday... I am still deciding what direction I want to take my life... part of me wants to just stay in the comfortable and familiar, and part of me wants to stray a little bit out of that zone, and then part of me wants to go crazy!!! :) it's really difficult and stressful to think about the future, so I have also considered two different options: I can fail some classes, therefore needed to come back to UD next year, or I can change my major, and then not have to make decisions concerning my field at all... these are both actually sounding good right now... I need to go clothes shopping... I feel the need for more spring/summer apparel, and shoes... can't forget the shoes... :) Rachel is coming this weekend!!! Therefore, I need a good party to take her to, because I LOVE drunk Rachel!! :) but really, I am quite excited to see her and get to hang out, and subject her to all of my weird things again, just like back in the good ol' days of 115 Woodland ;) and that's really all -- I'm calling it a night!! Current Mood: amused Current Music: the Felicity theme song :) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
12:09 am	I think waaaaaayyyy too much... Nothing really that new... but I'm updating anyways! especially since I've been in an extra good mood today, although I don't know why, but I feel that it needs to be documented! I'm going to Wisconsin this weekend :) I'm not sure why... yeah there's a conference there that I'm supposed to attend, but I really don't want to, so Erin and I might just hang out there! anyways, I need to bring back cheese for people... and one of those kick ass cheese hats! and at lunch today, there was also discussion of me milking a cow, but I'm not so sure that one will happen :) I really can't believe how fast this semester is going -- and then I'll be gone! and I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, but unfortunately, I have to decide really soon... but as everyone knows, I am REALLY bad at making decisions! This whole internship thing is horrible -- how should I know what I want to do? I think I'll do something weird, like flip a coin or use a magic 8-ball or something... that would definitely be my style! :) I really miss my old roommates!!! (haha, well, most of them...) Why do people move away?! Why don't people just want to stay in Dayton forever? (yeah, I guess I don't blame them... but I'll probably be here in Ohio forever!) but it will all be better soon, because I get to see Erin this weekend, and Rachel next weekend, and I'm definitely taking her out for some fun ;) yay for drunk me and Rachel hahaha Ok, that's all for tonight folks! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: The OC theme song :) (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 20th, 2005
9:45 pm	it's almost Monday again... this weekend was interesting... really shouldn't have drank so much on Saturday night... alcohol makes me say things that I really should not ever say to anyone... haha. and for some reason, I thought that getting drunk would help me be not sad and depressed... but alas, I don't think it worked! ah well, it was fun, even though I feel really weird about some of it now! especially as this morning/afternoon I kept telling my roommates different things that happened -- as I was actually remembering them. yeah, and that's another reason people think i'm crazy Megan just yelled because I don't do my homework, but I have done pretty much everything else this whole weekend, and now I'm writing this journal instead of my work... haha. And by the way, Megan is cool because I have now gotten her hooked on Buffy the Musical hahahaha :) so I guess it really is time to start on my ridiculous amount of work that's due in this coming 3-day week... boo... Goodnight all Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Musical Buffy!!!! :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)